Sunday, November 29, 2009

Last night’s dream

I don’t know why I have weird dreams.  I mean really weird dreams.  Once I dreamt of polar bears and penguins.

Anyway, last night was one of those weird dreams of all time.  Even my hubby, Miguel, said it was quite the weird dream.

Disclaimer: I enjoy listening to Justin Timberlake’s music. I’m not one of those crazy fans that would do anything to see him.  I do think he’s cute.  End of story.  Anyhow, read on :)

In last night’s dream, I, along with two other girls, Amanda and Debbie, were walking along the center of the aisle at church.  The church service had already begun, and somehow we were all a part of the service.  All three of us were pregnant.  This was Debbie’s second pregnancy and mine and Amanda’s first.  Debbie and I were the only ones that were married.  I knew my husband was around somewhere, but I wasn’t sure where and I looked for him as I walked down the aisle.

The next thing I know church had ended and I’m about to climb into an old style car (perhaps a Rolls Royce).   I see Justin Timberlake and a crowd of people along the fence.  They didn’t seem phased by who he was.  We’d dated quite a long time and decided to mutually end the relationship.  It just wasn’t going to work out.  He was there, watching me get into the car.  I caught him staring at me and all of a sudden, feelings that had died as soon as the relationship ended arose again.  I longed to run to him and desperately wanted to be with him.  I wanted to hold him.  But because I was pregnant (and about ready to pop), I couldn’t quite run to him.   So I just stood there, alongside of the car.  I longingly stared at him back.  He yelled, “I’m still in love with you”.  I thought to myself, “I can’t do this.  I love my husband”.  All of a sudden, I turn back towards the car and slowly put my left foot in.  Justin began running madly towards me.  He jumped onto the other side of the fence and continued running furiously.  Finally, he reaches the car and said in an hastily voice, “I love you”.  He holds and picks up my hand, gets me out of the car and says, “I’ve never stopped loving you”.  He then proceeds to give me a long, passionate kiss.  My body simply melted.  I’d forgotten how great of a kisser he was and how I felt when I was with him.  I had to pull back.  “I can’t do this,” I said.  “I’m about to have a baby with Miguel and I love him.  I’m sorry”.  I began to get back into the car and closed the door.  I told the driver to start driving.  As we left, tears began rolling down my face.  Part of me still loved Justin, but I was about to have my complete family with Miguel.  It’s what I’d always wanted and my dreams were finally coming true.

The next thing I know I’m lying in a hospital operating room and the entire cast of Grey’s Anatomy surrounded my bed.  Not only was there a glass viewing room (like in the real show), but the entire room was surrounded by glass and the entire room was surrounded by doctors.  The room was so full I assumed the entire hospital was there.  I look to my right and Dr. Bailey is there.  “Why are all of these doctors here and looking at me?”  No answer.  All of a sudden I was in labor (without any pain) and I was giving birth to a little girl.  During and after the dream I remembered how I felt after I’d given birth and I’d never been more happy in my entire life.  I was in love with my brand new baby girl.

As I gave birth to my daughter, the doctors took the baby away and wouldn’t let me see her.  I could hear her crying and I began to cry because I was so happy.  I said to Dr. Bailey, “I want to see her, I want to hold my baby!”  She looked at me like I was crazy.  All of a sudden I heard all of the machines furiously sound off.  I knew something wasn’t right.  I shrieked to Dr. Bailey, “What’s wrong with me?”  “Where’s my baby?”  I look to my left.  “Is something wrong with me?”  No answer.  The machines seemed to indicate that they were all flat lining.  I felt alone.  No Miguel.  No Justin.  Just a room filled with what felt like hundreds of doctors.

Then I woke up.  Reality set in.  My heart was racing pretty fast.  As I continued lying down my eyes were wide open and huge.  I thought to myself, “where’s my baby?  Then I remembered it was just a dream.  I calmed myself down.  It was only a dream.  I look over to my left and I see Miguel peacefully sleeping.  It was just a dream.  I continued to take a few deeps breaths.

After I calmed myself down for a few moments I looked over to my right at the clock to see what time it was.  7:20 a.m.  I quickly turned over and went back to sleep.  Dreaming time had ended.


bluepolarbear said...

I had a dream back in college that I had a baby boy. It was the most amazing feeling, the love was overwhelming but nothing like what I felt in real life. I never thought I could love someone so much.

I wonder if when you do have kids your first one will be a first was a boy like my dream! LOL!

Napa Valley Wife said...

Wow, no way! I didn't know you had a baby dream in college! :)

I definitely hope my first born is a girl! I am really rooting for a girl moreso than a boy. I think I like girls better :) Who knows, I may equally love having a boy when that time comes but for now, I favor baby girls :)

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